I feel so sleepy today. I got up early and did my usualy routine. That is, prepare suhoor, do exercise, eat suhoor, wudu, then fajr. I do the exercise before fajr because I'm worried that I will be too dehydrated the rest of the day if I do it after the fast starts. I took a nap right around noon. I got up and went grocery shopping later right before asr. I surprised to see lots of muslims at the store, the only reason I believe they were muslims is because the women wore hijabs. :) anyway, i guess they are buying food for iftar tonight.
I feel somewhat lonely today. seeing the families in the store, I think of what it might be like to not be secretive about being a muslim. I might still be just as lonely. I think I'm good at being a muslim in one sense, that, in spite of no one knowing or seeing me, I continue to pray salat, give zakat, and fast. But, on the other hand, I continue to carry it as a secret. I havent told any friends or family since the whole mess with my ex wife happened.
Tomorrow, inshallah, I plan to attend the new muslim class, that I did shahada in 2 years ago. I have not been back since then. I hope that I can meet some people there.
Peace and blessings to all
Some people say they're Muslim, but don't live like one. You are living the life of a true Muslim by praying, fasting, and just being the person you are. I commend you for that. Continue going to the mosque and you will meet people there. Eventually you will know the time is right to open up about it more.
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